Time: Changed from the inside out.

What do you do with your time? What a loaded question. Honestly, I really don't know how to answer it. I could go into the events of my day. Take children's temperatures, give medications, assess, document.... so on and so forth. Lately, God has been convicting me on what I do with my time. I have been at GLA in Haiti for just about eight months and I'm just about to make my first visit to the States. Where has the time gone? What have I done with my time so far here at GLA? I'd like to say all of my "free" time was spent pursuing God, but that would be a lie. Yes, I used some of it to pursue God and have definitely deepened my relationship with the Lord over the past eight months, but there was also a lot of wasted time that was not used wisely.

I am slowly learning how to and trying to see Jesus in people. Although people will always fail you, each of us is trying hard to live each day to the best of our abilities; some struggling more than others. My hope is that the people who are seeing me are also seeing Jesus living through me. I want my spend my time and my energy making sure that people can see Jesus through the way I act, live, and speak. If that's the case, my time has not been wasted.Whether you live in the States or overseas; whatever occupation you have; God can use you to show Himself and His promises. Although, I've always been told God can use me, at times I don't believe it. Me? Really? What do I have to add to the story of Jesus? What cards do I bring to the table?


I have to be honest, I'm a bit nervous to visit "home". My life and my heart have changed so much over the past eight months. I've been changing from the "inside out". A dear friend of mine here told me that the longer you are here in Haiti, the less in common you have with those at home, and I'm already finding that to be true. God uses everyone differently, and for me, in this season of my life; God is using me here in Haiti. So for those I will see so very soon. I look forward to our visit and I hope that I can somehow describe and show you all the ways Jesus is working in my heart and through me here in Haiti. My prayer is that I can show Jesus to those whose paths cross mine in my travels. Maybe in a short conversation or just a smile. Attempting to soften my heart to those around me and use my time wisely.

You'll be changed from the inside out... God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you. 

~Romans 12:2, MSG

...to be continued...

-B

Romans 12 ^{1-2 msg} So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you.