Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Lyrics to ease a heavy heart.


Jars of Clay: Love Will Find Us



Child of all creation don't let the world define you
And if you can't remember who you are
Let these words remind you

On the path of the empty handed
He will speak to the heart of the abandoned

These orphan hearts (Will find a home)
Run to these arms (Be not alone)
Light is leading
Love will find us all
Love will find us all

So hard to feel the fires of home
When all we see is darkness
We forgive but not our own and grasp what's around us

Till the dawn starts to break around you
Let all the stars in the night remind you

These orphan hearts (Will find a home)
Run to these arms (Be not alone)
Light is leading
Love will find us all
Love will find us all

These orphan hearts (Will find a home)
Run to these arms (Be not alone)
Light is leading
Love will find us

These orphan hearts (Will find a home)
Run to these arms (Be not alone)
Light is leading
Love will find us all
Love will find us all

Run to these arms, be not alone
Run to these arms, be not alone
Run to these arms, be not alone
Run to these arms, be not alone

Love will find us all
Love will find us all
Love will find us all (Run to these arms, be not alone)
Love will find us all (Run to these arms, be not alone)
Love will find us all
Love will find us all

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

The Process. (or so it seems)

So as many of you may have seen on my facebook; our dear sweet Wadagens was able to have his heart surgery this week. I want to go ahead and thank all of those who have been praying for Wadagens before, during and now after surgery. The process is very complex in Haiti and I don't believe anyone can fully comprehend the process whether you are part of the surgical team, a staff member at God's Littlest Angels or a prayer partner throughout the world.

Now, to start off... the process of getting Wadagens to have his surgery started way before I even got to Haiti; God had this planned from the beginning. This post will be composed of the past month spent with Wadagens.

Earlier this year, news spread to our Pediatrician that a French team of heart surgeons with an organization called The Heart Fund to Fight Cardiovascular Disease was coming to do their second mission in Haiti. Their first mission was this past April and just three children were chosen for surgery. This past Wednesday-December 5th, the staff at GLA was told that Wadegens was going to be evaluated as a possible candidate for surgery the following week. So on Wednesday afternoon Rebecca, Irland (a Haitian student nurse & staff member at GLA), Wadson (our driver & also a staff member), & Wadagens went to the clinic in Petionville about 20 min from God's Littlest Angels. At the time they were told he could not be evaluated unless they had blood for him... Blood for him? What? Apparantly to even be evaluated in Haiti you must have two units of blood on standby  and credited to Wadagens to be sure he would have blood available to him if needed during a possible surgery.

So Thursday morning, December 6th,  a few GLA staff members-Irland, Molly, Melissa, Rhyan, Rebecca & myself brought Wadagens back to the clinic to get a type and cross to get his blood type. Molly, Melissa, Rhyan, Rebecca & I then proceeded to go to General Hospital in Port Au Prince where the Red Cross was located. Upon entering the Red Cross I was very surprised to see about 20 people waiting with canisters and ice to get blood from the Red Cross... Thankfully, we were able to just drop Wadagen's type and cross off at the Red Cross and then we were redirected to a more "americanized" Red Cross in Port Au Prince which we all went to give blood. As I said before, he needed two units on standby... but they required four people to give blood. Thankfully, we brought five because I was sadly too anemic to give blood but Molly, Melissa, Rhyan & Rebecca were all able to give! I think we were all pleasantly surprised at the process at the newer more "americanized" Red Cross. It was actually faster than giving in the states and it was clean and well run... but we were also the only people coming to donate.

Thursday evening and Friday were essentially "rest" days until the next part of becoming a surgical candidate began...

Onto Saturday, December 8th. Dixie, Rebecca, Wadagens & I left early morning to spend the day at the clinic. He was number 23 on the list to be seen. While we waited Wadson, picked up the two units of blood for Wadagens...remember I said we needed to have those present prior to evaluation and he also so kindly brought us lunch! At about 1:30 Wadagens was seen, he had a quick echo done, was weighed & they reviewed charts and labs from previous evaluations. The concern for Wadagens is he only weighs about 10kg and surgeries had not been completed in Haiti on children this small with with this particular organization. So we left the clinic Saturday with a "We'll call you and let you know". So we all waited, anxiously waiting to find out if he was chosen... and we waited... and we waited. We thought we'd know by Sunday night but by Sunday night came and went and there had been no call.

8:15am Monday morning, December 10th, Dixie gets a call and Rebecca & I get a knock on our door to get Wadagens ready... Today MAY be the day but we needed to come to the clinic as soon as possible to start "the process". So Monday we spent the day at the clinic again. He had a more detailed echo done and more labs drawn pretty quickly after getting there and then we waited... Until about 4:30pm, we found out he was next on the list to get his surgery and was brought up to be prepped! He was going to have the surgery & he was going to have it that night! Until then we really didn't know if he was actually chosen.

Monday night Wadagens spent the night alone as they said they did not allow visitors. Just one visitor at a time and just for a short time. Tuesday morning rolled around and Dixie, Rebecca & I headed back down to the clinic to check on him... from what we understand the first night by himself was rough but I was not there so I really do not know the details of what occurred. Rebecca was allowed up around 9:15am. At first Rebecca & I were going to stay at the clinic and switch back in forth but at about 10am, Dixie and I had to leave to pick up a baby who was referred to God's Littlest Angels for malnutrition and a skin infection. So Rebecca was able to spend the day with him and then after much deliberation by the clinic staff, surgical team and some pushing by our pediatrician, I was able to spend the night (on and off) with him. So Molly was able to drop me off at about 5:30 and pick Rebecca up.Wadagens gets scared easily but as soon as he heard Rebecca or my voice he would calm down, so although at times some of the staff may have not like our presence, Wadagens sure did.

Tuesday morning, Dixie and Rebecca arrived to do another switch. Through out the past two days IV meds, oxygen, nebulizer treatments are being decreased and/or discontinued and he is becoming more comfortable... well as comfortable as a child could be after having open heart surgery. Tonight (Dec 12th) he will spend the night alone, unfortunately his roommate is having multiple complications and an extra person in the small room is not very welcomed, but the surgical team is wonderful and I have confidence that he was well taken care of. We will be back at the clinic in the morning in hopes of a discharge home to his family at God's Littlest Angels.

Truly, I want to thank all of those involved. This could have not been completed by just one person, church doctor, nurse, or just by the staff at GLA. Many prayers have been said, many phone calls made, many hours spent awake and many special considerations made. I am so thankful for the supportive staff that I am surrounded by each day here at GLA. It is such an encouragement to see to so many people work together for the children of Haiti. Miracles can truly happen when people work together with God. He is our ultimate healer. To God be the praise & thanksgiving. He is the one who made this possible for Wadagens.

So as I finish this post... I thank you for your continued prayer as Wadagens journeys to recovery. A child who is loved by many and is one of God's Littlest Angels.

...to be continued...

-B

Saturday, December 1, 2012

One thing... Remains. (The Armor of God)

   Your love never fails, never gives up.
Never runs out on me.

  While in the process of preparing to move to Haiti, I was met with a lot of spiritual warfare. I wrote a blog called "Jesus take the wheel", which went into some of the struggles and spiritual warfare I was facing. While in North Carolina, the devil knew exactly where to hit me... and that was financially. I made the decision to move to North Carolina because I knew God wanted me there. I took a significant pay cut and dropped down to only one job (which was a first). I continued to finish my BSN and pay for that. After graduating, my college didn’t file a paper correctly for tax purposes and I got a bill from the IRS (this was eventually fixed) & not to mention the over $10,000 I paid out of pocket for dental work just in the two and a half years I was in North Carolina. Along with a few other bumps along the way, the devil knew finances were the one thing that may hinder me from moving to Haiti. I kept working through each bill, loan, etc… and kept telling Satin to “get out of my life”. After receiving the job offer at GLA, God provided in each circumstance in which “I was running low” and I am continual thankful he gave me the strength and courage to trust in Him and in His promises. I think Satan also realized that God can always beat him, even when it comes to finances! The few weeks before moving I felt calm and comfortable that God would provide because I was doing what he wanted me to do and moving to Haiti to serve Him and the people of Haiti.Fast forward to now. 

     Tomorrow marks three weeks of living in Haiti. I have been healthy and feeling good maybe 5 whole days. I had bronchitis the first week, followed by stomach problems and now I have had fever/chills & Strep Throat since Thursday night. New germs, food, travel, fatigue have most likely played a part in this but seriously in needs to stop. I want to be able to give 100% to the children, staff & volunteers at GLA. In my previous blog post I asked “What do you do to combat spiritual warfare? & Does anyone know of any good verses or passages to read?” I wanted to share what I found in case you were searching yourself and hadn’t found what you were looking for. Ephesians 6:10-20 says:
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should.
     This set of verses is labeled “The Armor of God”; as you face the day doing God’s work, put on the full armor of God and let God do His work in your life. I will stand my ground against Satan and be cheerful, knowing that I am working for the Lord and he is my ultimate healer and provider. He will comfort me in my sickness and help me fight each battle Satan puts in front of me; whatever that may be. As I write this I can’t help but feel selfish. I live in this beautiful country full of beautiful people who are suffering. I know my financial and physical burdens will be healed. Others live without that possibility or even the hope of that possibility. I hope that as I live this life God has given me, I exude the Armor of God and am able to share the hope, strength, courage, & possibilities that come when you have faith in Jesus Christ. I leave you with this verse; “Search for the Lord and for His strength; seek his face always” Psalm 105:4.

…to be continued…

-B


An addendum... A day later.
As I finished up this post yesterday, I really wanted to find a song to lift my spirits along with Ephesians 6:10-20; so here it is: One Thing Remains by Jesus Culture.




In death, In life, I’m confident and
covered by the power of Your great love

My debt is paid, there’s nothing that can
separate my heart from Your great love...