Battles of the heart.

   Sometimes I look around me and am amazed that God chose me to live in such a beautiful country with beautiful people. Today was one of those days. I know that there have been moments in my 10 months here that I've taken for granted... Living day in and day out, trying to take each day, each surprise, each new child,  joy, life, death, illness, etc as it comes. During those times, sometimes missing or forgetting what brought me here in the first place. Yes, to do a job and to do it as well as I can but because God called me here. For some reason God chose me to here at God's Littlest Angels in Haiti.

   Satan is constantly attacking. Attacking our bodies and our thoughts. Why me? How did I get this chance? I'm sure there are others that could do better? Can I handle this? What if I fail? What if I disappoint? What if... Battles of the mind... Battles of self... Battles of the heart...

   God chose each of each us. We all have a purpose... Walls have been broken, wounds have been healed. I have changed so much since being here and I'm excited to see what else God has in store. 

   Anything can happen at any moment. I've been learning that more and more. It can be quite scary and unnerving... We live in a world of schedules and 5 year plans. How can we plan five years ahead when we don't even know what's going to happen in the next 5 minutes. God already knows what your 5 year plan entails... Now, to just trust Him and be proactive in your relationship with Him, knowing He's got it covered, He's your life and health insurance policy. God's not just in your 5 year plan but  He IS your life plan and your life planner. That's the challenge, right? Living each day, following His plan for your life and not your own. Trying not to question it?

   I know that is a battle of my heart. My life is not my own and I need to remember that God's plan for my life is way better than my own plan. I'm so thankful to being surrounded by a great support system both here in Haiti and in the States. I have been humbled by the love and support I have been surrounded by, especially in the last few weeks. Learning to let people in, let them help you, let them care for you... Now, those are some humbling lessons.

...to be continued...

-B

It’s in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone. 

Ephesians 1:11-13 MSG