Now, everyone can be a missionary; whether it be in your community, your workplace, state, country, or overseas. Prior to Haiti, I had lost my focus... I'm not sure if others have gone through this but mid 20's can be a weird age... For me, I was now finished with school and not dating anyone with the potential of marriage so I felt very static, in-between, blah... My life consisted of going to work and coming home to my dog... (He's pretty special though) Anyone else? I felt like my friends who are still in college hung out together and my married or soon-to-be married/ seriously dating friends hung out, and all my PA friends... well they're in PA. So, sometimes I just felt a little out of place. Do I really just have to go to work and come home? I know a few of my friends are also in this "in-between" phase, so I know I'm not alone. Still... life went on.
So anyway... since school was finished I decided to focus on a few things, set some goals for myself. I am totally a person who has to set goals for myself. I can't just go to work and come home. My goals were to focus on paying off my school debt, train for my second triathlon, prepare for Haiti, and most importantly deepen my relationship with God. March was a huge month for me... It was the month before my trip to Haiti. I completed my second triathlon (doctors never thought I'd do anything of the sort due to my heart) and I turned 25... P.S. greatest friends in the world award... My NC friends threw me a surprise birthday party and it was a complete and total surprise. I still can't believe no one spilled! It was an amazing month. So much was accomplished, goals were being met... so on and so forth.
So, I guess it's time for the big announcement. Although I am continually working towards those goals as listed above, I have a huge goal.
......DRUM ROLL PLEASE.......
HAITI IS IT!!! Haiti is where I want to spend a the next part of my life, who knows maybe all of it. I think about day 3 in Haiti I realized that my focus, besides all of those things listed above, is to move to Haiti full time. Many things are still up in the air. I don't know what part of Haiti, what organization, when or how I will get there, but I do know God has placed this desire on my heart and it will happen! So here's the kicker, I need your prayers... Lots of things to do and figure out before I go. I have been researching organizations and studying Haitian-Creole (Mwen renmen Haiti!). I don't know if it will be this year or further in the future I just know I have to go. So your prayers are much appreciated.
I guess you are probably wondering, how I decided on Haiti... The best answer is... I just know. I was ready to hear what God needed to tell me. Strangely enough, I have always been able to make huge decisions quickly and calmly. God says Go and there I go... Just like when I chose a college, my move to NC and now my eventual move to Haiti (Don't ask me what I want for dinner though because that takes forever and a day!). I am extremely calm about my decision (it could be because it's not quite real yet). I feel comforted. I feel completely ready for what God has in store. So a few people have alreay heart this news and I've gotten a lot of questions like "really?", "aren't you afraid?", "can you do it?"... Well here are the answers; Yes, really! What is there to be afraid of, God will protect me; I'm more afraid of not following my heart and God to Haiti. Lastly, no I can not do it alone but God can surely make it possible.
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| This precious girl is Kalinda... She is one of those pieces of my heart I left in Haiti. |
Here's the thing...
I left a part of my heart in Haiti and now I have to follow it.
...to be continued...
-B-
